August 13, 2013

perspective and music and melodramatics.

This has been a whirling, tumbling, race of a summer, the kind so quick and busy you find yourself wondering when, exactly time will slow down. It's been punctuated, though, by some of the most beautiful pauses — quiet, peaceful moments that I've clung to when things grew hectic again. Luckily it's been a lot of good, a lot of work that I love (like the live Bachelorette viewing party), a lot of road trips, a lot of sun and friends and visits. It's been a season for the books, that's for sure.

There was a phase just after I turned eighteen where life started to feel very big and very new — college, leaving home, a love of sorts — and I remember turning to, of all things, music without words. Instrumentals. Without lyrics, the music could clear my mind and I could step outside the moment for a little while. There was one song, Another Day by The Album Leaf, that I played over and over, again and again. It made me want to run toward someone I loved in slow motion at an airport terminal or something, which is basically how I can sum up my taste in melodramatic movies.

I've been thinking a lot lately about perspective. Perspective: 1. a particular attitude toward or way of regarding something; a point of view 2. true understanding of the relative importance of things; a sense of proportion. A sense of proportion.

In my experience, your 20s start to feel like an exercise in moving from mostly want-to-dos to mostly have-to-dos, a growing up of sorts. And for me, its usually an issue of perspective — learning to want to do the things I have to do, or shifting my life toward the goal of having to do the things I want to do. It has to do with responsibility, and taking responsibility for the way you see the world. As Ashton Kutcher said at the Teen Choice Awards* this week — yep, I'm going there — you don't live a life, you build one.

So it goes, right?

*Disclaimer: I covered the Teen Choice Awards for work. (And loved every second of it, because I'll forever feel 16.)

3 comments:

Allie said... [Reply to comment]

I love your love for pop culture. And yes, I kind of think Ashton Kutcher's quote is the absolute best.

L ♡ said... [Reply to comment]

I understand what you mean about the 20s.
I've just moved into my first house, gaining a brand new set of bills, and having to juggle two jobs and university. It's a whirlwind of a life.
This post just let me remember that I want to be at university for larger life prospects, and I want to work to have money to treat myself!
So, thanks!! :D xx

The Recordologist said... [Reply to comment]

Beautifully written! Thanks for reminding me the importance of taking responsibility...