February 25, 2013

my two cents: don't hold back.

Lately I've heard from a lot of friends who feel like they're "too much." Too emotional, too excited, too much in love — as if every feeling has a just-right sweet spot that can't be passed. And in the midst of all these conversations with friends came Meg's beautiful post on loving too much and Anna's poignant words about having to pull back, and I remembered a conversation with Radley.

It was early on in our relationship during that special getting-to-know-each-other phase. We were walking along the Mission Beach boardwalk, smoothies in hand, talking about our pasts.

"Don't worry. I think I've finally learned how to hold back," I said, laughing.

He didn't understand. "Hold back?"

"Yeah, you know, from caring too much. From going a little overboard. I have a tendency to fall hard and fall fast, and I've finally learned how to slow things down and just ease into it."

I've memorized the look he gave me just then, a mix of sympathy and amusement. He grabbed my hand and we kept walking and he said, "You know it's right when you both love a little too much."

And so I held nothing back, and neither did he, and our too much turned out to be just enough.

(Photo: The Bayside Boardwalk)

12 comments:

AM said... [Reply to comment]

Lovely and inspiring. Your words are always so elegantly written, yet in a simple, concise manner that allows people to truly connect to what you write. I always look forward to reading your posts!

Allie said... [Reply to comment]
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Allie said... [Reply to comment]

i love this and i LOVE that radley said that... i think as a woman im constantly holding back and for some reason already thinking about not 'scaring off' the one... but his comment really gives me hope that when it's right, there will be no such thing as too much:)

Angela said... [Reply to comment]

So sweet! I think as girls we try and hold back our emotions because we don't want to be too over the top in relationships...but when you find the right guy he loves you for you...over the top and everything! :)

meg fee said... [Reply to comment]

mmm. i don't even know radley, but i feel like i know exactly what the look on his face was. i love this. xo

Laura Marie Meyers said... [Reply to comment]

@meg fee Haha let's be real, at this point you basically know Radley ;) XO

Alice said... [Reply to comment]

Oh I always love too much. It always ends in me with my heart smushed but actually, I don't think I want to stop- loving too much will eventually work out (right?!) :) x

brlracincwgrl said... [Reply to comment]

I love this! I've always been one that loved "too" much, I thought. But when it becomes "just enough", is when you know it's all been completely worth it.

nancy said... [Reply to comment]

Goosebumps :)

Nicole Marie said... [Reply to comment]

get serious he did not say that... oh m g.. made for each other

Rachael said... [Reply to comment]

I love this post. I am constantly having conversations with my friends about how we are "too much." We joke around about it, but yet I am constantly telling myself to slow down.

pinkpeonie said... [Reply to comment]

he he, at nicole's comment. Made for each other is right!