September 26, 2011

settling in.

Slowly but surely we are settling in and establishing ourselves, figuring out a routine that attempts to etch some sort of framework into our days. I've picked out My Treadmill at the gym, decided which coffee shop I'll frequent, learned to navigate the post office and the grocery store and, of course, the local bookstore. Over the past couple weeks I've memorized the layout of the neighborhood: the streets, the intersections, and--most importantly--the hills.

It's a strange business, this moving thing. Some mornings I wake up and can't remember where I am or why I'm here. Vacation? Dream? Somewhere in between? I stare up at our white vaulted ceilings and study the curve of the wall as I steady myself--root myself in reality. Usually this steadying comes quite quickly. Usually it's a matter of seconds before I can tick off what I know to be true: California. San Francisco. New apartment. New bedroom. New bed. This ceiling. 

Every few days, though, I find myself suspended between confusion and certainty. In a grey area that feels more like a white space. I linger there for a while--not comfortable, exactly, but not altogether uncomfortable, either. It's sort of nice, actually. Sort of wonderful and freeing.

A new space, I've learned, opens me up. Unfolds me. And as I float in this wide expanse between opening and closing, I am learning. Day by day, hill by hill, I'm learning.

(Photo: My Flickr)


Allie said... [Reply to comment]

San Francisco is gorgeous. Hope you are having a great time! Plus finding a coffee shop to regular is definitely important. :)

Elizabeth and Kyle @ Love Is the Adventure said... [Reply to comment]

Such a well-written way to express that. I know the feeling. There is a great newness about moving. It's like a new car-smell, except it's new-life smell. Kinda.

Can't wait to hear more about SF! I love that city...

becky said... [Reply to comment]

This is so incredibly beautiful--I am envious of its simplicity but, at the same time, its absolute complexity of mind. Your blog is always such a treat to read!

Laura Marie said... [Reply to comment]

@Elizabeth and Kyle @ Love Is the Adventure Ha! Love that comparison... new-life smell. So true!

Tiana Ells said... [Reply to comment]

It looks so beautiful. I hope everything is well!


siddathornton said... [Reply to comment]

i think one of the things i'm most excited for when i move in a few months is picking my coffee shop - i cannot wait!

Vi said... [Reply to comment]

I've moved to Paris about a month ago and it took me a couple weeks to actually get the idea around my head. It would just dawn on me every couple of days that I now live here and I'd feel surprised and excited all over again!
Hope you're having a wonderful time in California!

Nicole Marie said... [Reply to comment]


all of these things bring me right back to when i first moved here. walking around aimlessly looking for nothing but finding so many beautiful sights, stores, cafes, views along the way