September 8, 2011

on my grandmother, and the sun.

Yesterday, my grandmother and I bonded over our shared love of the sun. Walking through the arboretum, watching the sunlight flicker between the trees, we gushed. And gushed. And gushed. 

She spoke of the years she spent living on Kauai with my grandfather and of her sun-filled lifestyle in Arizona. Of waking up with the sunrise and starting her day with an outdoor swim. I nodded, telling her about all the little ways I try to sneak extra sun into my day.

"Even if I'm inside," I told her, "I like to be in the lightest of spaces. Plenty of windows and everything white. Lots and lots of clean, crisp white."

"Yes!" she said, squealing in spite of herself. "When you walk into a light space, or when you walk outside and into the sun, you can feel yourself open up. Know what I mean?"

Open up. "Yes," I said. "Yes, you're exactly right. That's it."

Nanny put it perfectly, because it's that opening up feeling that I crave. The sensation of lifting, as if my spirit is stretching out. As if I'm unfolding.

There are several things that Nanny has passed down to me: a flair for the dramatic, a passion for bright colors and beautiful gardens and juicy gossip. We both laugh loudly and write often. We both appreciate organization and timeliness, nice stationery and powerful films. And I've always loved it--always delighted in our similarities.

But this, I've decided, is what I love most: that every time I step into the daylight--every time I push open the curtains or crack open a window to let the sunshine fill the space and unfold me, I'll think of her.

(Photo: My Flickr)


s a m said... [Reply to comment]

Laura, my grandmother and I share this too. She likes to say "Samantha, we are sun people!" ... also, for as long as I can remember she's called Turquoise "her color". Now it's "our color".

Alli said... [Reply to comment]

Beautiful. Your relationship with your grandma as much as the sun.

Briel79 said... [Reply to comment]

Aww, what a sweet post! Aren't grandmother's the best?! :)

Jeannee said... [Reply to comment]

LOVE this beautiful tribute!

emily janette said... [Reply to comment]

i completely adore this.

Gyda, Einar og Gríslingarnir ÞRÍR. SURVIVING RESIDENCY said... [Reply to comment]

Loved to read that post.
I miss my grandmother just reading this. She lives in Iceland , and I live in Vermont.