August 3, 2011

wading through.

Sometimes, all you can do is hold on to little bits of sanity here and there. Sometimes, when you find yourself wading through a gray area--when uncertainty spreads itself like a thick fog around you--the best thing you can manage is to find clarity in any small way you can... In the simple satisfaction of vacuuming, say, or in the fresh scent of clean laundry, or in the sweeping sense of black-and-white that comes from packing up your entire apartment and seeing all of your belongings in labeled, color-coded boxes.

To me, in-between never feels easy. It requires me to trust and let go and push through--to linger in an uncomfortable, unknowable place. It forces me to recognize what's obvious: that I can't control everything. That I can only plan and prepare and map out so much. Because the rest, as they say, is out of my hands.

... And so I vacuum.

(Photo: Madelyn)

6 comments:

missy. said... [Reply to comment]

and so i vacuum. haha love it!

Anna said... [Reply to comment]

i vacuum when i'm homesick. oddly enough, i never vacuum at home...
who'da thunk?

hab dich lieb.

Alissa said... [Reply to comment]

Cleaning brings me back to myself (and sanity) every time. And I can relate to feeling lost during those in-between life transitions. It sounds like you have wonderful things ahead of you!

Neen said... [Reply to comment]

I love your blog! I love your poetic writing and your humour. Your posts always bring a smile to my day!

Laura Marie said... [Reply to comment]

@Anna Love when you comment in German!

Julia said... [Reply to comment]

haha, i love the ending: so i vacuum.. you have a lovely blog. greetings from Spain