July 18, 2011

the midsummer crisis.

It's always around this time, mid-summer, that I begin to worry about all the things I haven't done yet, all the seasonal to-do's I dreamed about to get me through the brutal winter days. I mentally run down the list: a picnic in the park, a day at the museum, a road trip, a bike ride along the lakefront, go to such and such concert, visit friends A, B, and C, etc. etc... 

The list is always lengthy; unreasonably long, really--so long that I know I couldn't possibly get to every item. Still, though, I become frantic when I realize how little has been done in the first half of the summer. I get anxious over how quickly the weeks have passed, how quickly August will pass, too, and I tell myself to make the most of every second.

But this summer, for the first time, my attitude changed. In June I told myself that this year, it wouldn't be about how many things I did or how many people I saw or how many seconds I wasted inside on a sunny day. Summer, I realized, isn't about feeling guilty for not sticking to a schedule; it's about throwing away the schedule. It's about doing whatever you please--whatever keeps you feeling light, whatever leaves you recharged come September.

And you know what? It's midsummer and I've cross off nearly every item on my list. Without the pressure of making sure to have fun, I just, well... had fun. Amazing how that works, isn't it?

(Photo: My Flickr)


melanie said... [Reply to comment]

i worry right around now, too :/

Nicole Marie said... [Reply to comment]

it's funny cause i made a list at the beginning of the summer and although i've done a lot on my summer list i've also done a lot of other stuff that i never even thought of to put on my list. and they were such fun things.

Ana* said... [Reply to comment]

how ironic it is you wrote about this today, I was thinking about all I have and have not done yet...

Allie said... [Reply to comment]

I didn't make a list before the summer but I do have a bucket list and this summer has crossed off more things on that bucket list than ever before. And without thinking of it, all of these special moments happened without any plan.

Shae Cox said... [Reply to comment]

I am right there with you!

I'm a new follower of your blog :) www.nevergiveupshae.blogspot.com

P.S Congrats on the engagement!

Chels said... [Reply to comment]

AMEN to this!! I agree with you 100% . Reading this was a great reminder, thanks for sharing!

missy. said... [Reply to comment]

that is awesome.. i have to do the same thing sometimes.

Jennifer Rod said... [Reply to comment]

yes, i totally agree. the minute i dont worry about the list of things and just have fun... things just happen. and it's so easy breezy! :)

Eleanor at Mirror Of My World said... [Reply to comment]

i know. were under a lot of pressure to achieve all the time in this world that summer can even stress us out!! xx its crazy

Alli said... [Reply to comment]

Awesome! I'm actually still in my worry phase. I've been taking graduate classes all summer so while it is 'the season' I haven't had time to go enjoy myself yet. Hopefully in a week that'll start happening!

jillian m. said... [Reply to comment]

I completely admire you for having that mind-set now. Because I'm still like your old self! I have all these goals and things that I want to do before summer's end, but this time is passing so quickly that I'm afraid I won't get to everything (and I probably won't!).

Summer is supposed to be about easiness and relaxation. Sometimes, I need to re-learn what these mean.

Ashley said... [Reply to comment]

story of my life! I have so many things I want to do, but havent gotten around to them yet... dang it.