January 5, 2011

craving the calm.

January is a strange time, isn't it? 

Throughout December, we're encouraged to relax into moments, sink into the little things and indulge, indulge, indulge because hey, 'tis the season. And then suddenly, almost as soon as we've begun to unwind, the year comes to a close, January first rolls around, and it's time to buckle up (which may or may not be more difficult after an outrageous amount of holiday desserts) and Improve Ourselves.

We brainstorm mile-long lists of resolutions, pledging to become better, wiser, healthier. we promise ourselves that we'll lose ten pounds and gain confidence. That we'll cut out caffeine (almost) and add more vegetables. That we'll run a marathon, stop swearing, dress better, feel better, become a better friend/daughter/human being. That we'll finish our novel, learn all about photography, and finally let go of that thing/person/habit we just can't seem to get over.

All of this we are supposed to do after the holiday storm.
But shouldn't there be calm after the storm? Isn't that how it goes?

Shouldn't we be celebrating the year we've just had, with all its hang-ups and mess-ups and, yes, its triumphs too? I think so. I think that resolutions--all that forward-thinking--is wonderful, of course, because who doesn't love setting a goal? But it's also exhausting. And overwhelming. And a little bit too much, a little bit too soon. 

I'm a big list person. A big goal person. A big dreaming-of-the-future person. (If you couldn't already tell.) But this year, I think I'm going to tone it down a bit. I'm going to do what we're always encouraged to do, but what I've never quite seemed to master--a realistic, little-by-little, big picture sort of resolution.

I'll be graduating with my masters this June, and in the meantime I'm going to do everything that I can--absolutely everything in my power--to make myself the best possible candidate for my dream publishing job. I have a certain publishing house in mind, a certain position, and a certain timeframe. So now, of course, it's just a matter of baby steps. 

Oh, and if I happen to run a marathon/finish my novel/become a superhero sometime in 2011? Well, that'll just be icing on the cake. 

(Photo: my flickr)


nicole addison said... [Reply to comment]

you're too cute (and wise) for your own good:)

Ana* said... [Reply to comment]

those baby steps are the most important ones we tend to forget about.

courtney. said... [Reply to comment]

that's awesome that you have your goals and everything all lined up, best of luck in achieving them.

Kaley said... [Reply to comment]

I've chosen to just adopt a word for this year (http://myoneword.org/) and thus I find it to be the perfect alternative to a resolution, which I've never done anyway. My one word is hope.

CassieLynn said... [Reply to comment]

I am so glad I am following you on twitter now to know that you posted this!
This blog post was exactly something I needed to read today...I have made resolutions in my mind of all those things you listed and maybe I should back off just a tad too...because honestly since Jan. 1st began I have had almost no energy.

Thanks again for your wonderful post...helped me out today. :)

Rachael said... [Reply to comment]

Wonderful post, as always :)
You're right though. People always get into the 'resolution' state of mind right after new years, when it doesn't all have to happen so fast. I mean, even if you don't complete a certain goal for yourself in this new year, you can take baby steps for it, and continue on. Goals don't need to be accomplish in a year anyway. Who made that rule?
Good luck to you though on your 'eye on the prize'! :)

jackiek said... [Reply to comment]

so amazing :)

A Serenade for Solitude said... [Reply to comment]

Awesome post. I like that you've set your sites high in more than one area...you will surely have success! Happy New Year!

~Abby~ said... [Reply to comment]

Good luck with your goal! I know if you really set your mind to it, you can do it. I hope you get the dream job you want. :)


Kelly said... [Reply to comment]

this is a great perspective : )