December 7, 2009

an in-flight epiphany

Letting go of people and places I love has never been easy for me.
In fact, it's always been one of my biggest challenges. 

I've just never understood how you're supposed to be able to say goodbye to someplace or someone you love or have loved with every piece of yourself. I know, of course, that it isn't possible to hold on to everything you've ever cared about - but that's never quite stopped me from trying. 

It's just that I tend to think of my life in chapters and it isn't as if you keep reading and just forget what happened on the previous page. No - you hold on to every important character and setting from the beginning of the story because you just know that in some later chapter there will be some epiphany and you will better understand their significance. You never forget about those first people or moments because they're the undercurrent of everything to come. 

So maybe it's not really about "letting go" at all. Maybe it's about acknowledging who, what and where you've loved and appreciating that they've led you to the page you're on now. 

Maybe it's not about forgetting, but about letting those people and places nestle themselves in some corner of your heart so that down the line, when you encounter that climactic scene that gives meaning to the entire story, you can smile to yourself as you realize that it was them who brought you here - to this place, to this person you've become. 

(Photo: racetay)

5 comments:

mazzy in wonderland said... [Reply to comment]

i am in love with this post. <33

this is so beautiful laura, put me in a happier and more peaceful state of mind :) x

*D* said... [Reply to comment]

well said! exactly how I feel about life! :)

Caroline said... [Reply to comment]

What a beautiful post!!! I needed to read something like that today... thank you!! xo

Tia in the Sky said... [Reply to comment]

Such a good way to look at things, such a wonderful way to word it,
xoxo

defining amy said... [Reply to comment]

i've read this post a couple of times. i love it. thank you thank you.